Feeling Very Virgin

Oh Famous Moon, I am yours!
Look down upon me,
See only yourself.
--Rumi

Hello Bloggers,

I'm feeling very virgin today sitting down here to write my first blog ever! I'm really even new to reading here, having just spent yesterday afternoon exploring the site. Some very talented peeps here! I already feel I'm among good company, though after absorbing the atmosphere through the senses of some other bloggers, I can tell there will be surprising new scenes ahead.

I got here by way of a summer writers' bootcamp -- a thousand words a day! Phew! That was intense -- and a wonderful experience! What a commitment I made to myself -- and I accomplished it! A thousand words a day for ten days! Not bragging, just kind of elated over the whole thing. This was the site used for writer relief--the participants could "talk amongst themselves" here, and, believe me, towards the end I did some sweating and wringing of hands in our blog space. So you can see how, during my ten day intro to this site, I kept entirely to that small, contained, and "known" space--it was my comfort zone!

Had my conference with our "mentor" yesterday and he suggested opening up a blog here--you know, to keep the momentum going and to further explore and expand on some of the topics I introduced in my ten day writing spree (all first draft stuff, of course). So here I am, blogging away and not saying much of anything at all! Aaah, *sigh*, had to change positions--that chair was getting hard on my sit-bones. I'm on the floor now, sitting on my purple meditation prop chair with my 'puter warming my lap. *sigh* again.

Oh, about the Rumi poem... Well, actually a lot of references to that-- Should I have a countdown, or just cut to the chase? Well, today, I'm into cutting to the chase. I obviously have plenty of time and space to elaborate as we go forward. OK, even though Rumi was, here, as the mystical poet, describing that tantric union with the divine, my take ("in her own voice") for now is that the power of greater knowing and greater experience is mine for looking upon it, feeling into it, sensing it deeply. And so I relish in these lines that feeling of awe in claiming for myself the opening to self-love and self-empowerment--the gifts rather than the limitations of narcissism.

Besides further exploring myself here and encouraging my readers to do the same, I expect to be making social commentary--observations about current trends and their future ramifications. I may do so from time to time with references to psychological, astrological/cosmological cycles, past and future history (yes, I may go slip-streaming for our info--I'm a sci-fi/fantasy-phile)--annnd, I am a therapist (and yes, I've already seen it split into two words and have spam-blockers set all around me for bouncing it right back at ya!) I'm into personal and planetary transformation and I tend towards chaos theory (or evolutionary systems theory) as a social change model.

I also have my Moonwalk Mission which is all about manifesting the good things of life (inner and outer). I write and send by group email short essays with the phases of the moon, using those as a guide for creating projects, making life transitions, achieving personal goals. I call it MotherSource Speaks. My essays are self-referent, hopefully giving my readers some insight and inside knowledge into how the method can work for them along with a charge of inspiration and encouragement. I may decide to post some of that writing here, but it is time sensitive and seasonal, so must be read in the moment to gain most from its "wisdom".

The transit zones of birth, life peaks, death and dying are areas of interest, exploration, and lucid witnessing for me, as are the more non-ordinary experiences. Periods of both pain and pleasure are intensely and intimately associated with all these experiences, the more extreme being traumatic or at least very discombobulating. I work with those who've experienced trauma and other non-ordinary experiences, such as NDE's and psi. So you see the "dark" side and the "other side" are territories familiar to me. Some things I write, especially my poetry (oh, yeah, there'll most probably be a poetry section in here once I figure out how to set up this site in at least a beginning version of what you more sophisticated bloggers have created here for yourselves)...will be reflective of those other zones of awareness.

The metaphor of myth I find very helpful in making meaning of these altered states into which we are thrown when we meet with the unknown. So I will make reference in many of my essays to myth and to Jungian thought, which just naturally takes us into the deeper mysteries of life and death. But bloggers, I am not all about the deep and mysterious. In fact there can be a very playful impishness about me and the way in which I like to interact with you.

I like the way the Caffeinated Librarian made names and categories for her family, friends, and reading public. I am going to work on devising a similar kind of code and order. Hopefully I'll figure out how to get these postings divided up into categories where the peeps I know can pick and choose according to their interests. B/c I am a traveler, an adventurer and a scout within and beyond the realms of knowledge and awareness. I took on the Star Trek mission for my own at an early age--"to go where no [one] has gone before" (and maybe where many care not to go!) I want to know and be known (and the latter may be the more difficult of the two to achieve!)

But here is to my beginning, blogmates! (Geez, I hope there are no initiation rites -- *looking timid and a'feared*) Let's see, do you sign these things? hmm, "in her own voice" -- how will I be called? IHOV? In her? Voice? MoonWoman? hmmn, we'll see what develops.