Dark Moon Mama

At this point in my blogger enterprise, readers, I'm feeling conflicted. I don't know if this is typically what happens to a person after the first few weeks of writing in these pages, or if this is just something going on with me right now--just because I am who I am and have my own patterns of inner conflict. I know I'm not having writer's block, or any lack of ideas--in fact I feel overrun with ideas.

There's been a great flurry of activity in the group process of our "progressive" interest community and I know my energies have been pulled towards facilitation in that direction--and this has led me to doing more political reading than writing. I know I'm also struggling to stay focused on my original intent for creating this blog--to give a home for, a structure for my own creative process. It's easy to get distracted by the currents and flow of other writers here and to get caught up in the activity of current events rather than using their impact as prompts for tapping into my my own intuitive reserves.

It's also difficult to keep a clear image of who my readership is. When I write to my newsletter group, I know who they are--I can picture their faces, their potential responses to my message. I have diverse interests and diverse groups of people connected to those various areas of my own study or entertainment. Each time I write to one, I feel I'm leaving another out--disappointing someone or group. It's clear I'm going to have to let this go, because I know it's not good on anyone's account for me to write a homogenized version of a topic, one that can fit into the framework of any mindset. I'm afraid I've already done that a few times and it really dumbs down the quality of a piece.

I'm feeling the need right now to have some private space--some little corner in these pages just for me to have my own process. Perhaps I'm missing my journal--that's a real possibility. At the same time, we are deep into the balsamic phase of the moon. This is the traditional time to release into the dark void all the remains of the day. It is like the quiet and empty time after the celebration of the harvest. The time for the fields to be fallow and the people to to enter into the sabbath--to rest and renew their energies. Perhaps that can explain how I'm feeling now and why I have no inspiration or energy for holding the form--for staying the course. It's time for change and renewal.

The balsamic or dark moon period is definitely a time for release and regeneration of our energies, a time for regrouping, and as the phase of the moon becomes new (as it does this Sunday the 12th at 6:02 CDT here in Houston), we are offered an opening to connection with our deeper store of consciousness. Here we have the opportunity for sorting through all that is and scrying for what is our next best focus for manifestation. This is the time for the insemination of a new plan, one that can be developed over the next month's moon cycle . It is the time of new beginnings.

Be patient and rest, my child, says Old Mother Moon. Be at peace, for we will begin anew when the time is right. Then we will have all the insight we need for developing the new form, one that will serve us well in the days to come.

Passions out of Sync? - Venus and the Full Moon

How about that full moon last night, bloggers? Grand and pulsingly radiant was that golden orb on the horizon as it rose in a cracking clear sky (at last) here in Houston. Quite potent in the reflection of that Leo Sun, I’d say. So much so that I was somewhat intoxicated on my lone walk last night through the dark tree shadows along my thick woodsy trail. There was no fellow walker’s conversation or foot-falls to distract me or diminish the power of its attraction on me in any way.

I walked last night for my increase in potency, passion, pleasure, and respect—for joy, as I committed to you that I would at the time of the new moon. Actually I affirmed that on the crescent moon with all of you who focused in meditation during the Fire the Grid endeavor to fill the global consciousness grids with the flame of joyful purpose. And so I am not surprised at the quality of this Aquarian moon’s energetic presence—it was almost difficult to look upon without feeling quite overwhelmed.

As I told you in my “Summertime” post where I revealed the off-beat passions present both in my back yard and in the national news, I haven’t been sure whether to attribute these quirky mating rituals to climate change or Venus going retrograde the day before in Virgo, a few degrees from the cusp of Leo. And that remains unclear to me at this juncture. I must consider that Saturn and Neptune, at the same time, continue their oppositional dance flanked aggressively by Mars, demonstrating some of his own brand of sensuality.

But, certainly, Mercury trine quirky Uranus, having picked up some momentum in slogging through Cancer’s emotional seas is adding to the overall psychic atmosphere of these phenomena. In addition, I have to say, the bride thing just seems so Virgo to me! (Actually, Virgo does represent the Bride, Bridget/Brigid, before she surrenders her sovereignty into the marriage bond in Libra.) *sigh*

Nevertheless, the retrograde period of Venus from now until September the 8th should bring us some time for clear reflection upon our passions of the past, though I don’t expect they will all be recollections of quirky, out-of-time, sad, or aggressive relationships. Do, however, recognize, my friends, that they are reflections of relationships you are no longer “in”! It’s a good time to both honor those relationships, foul or fair, and recall what their consequences have been for you. You may now commit to live with those results, using them to plan for a more pleasurable and potent relationship future.

This recognition will become clearer as Venus retrogrades back into Leo and forms a conjunction with Saturn (August 13th). It may also be a good time for you to reflect upon how your relationship with your opposite sex parent (or both parents) has affected your sense of personal attractiveness in terms of your potential for pleasure with intimate partners. I know a well-loved daughter, the apple of her father’s eye and the chest busting out pride of her mother who exudes self-confidence in her beauty and worth, and attracts men like flies. So, you see what I mean, bloggers?

As we go into the waning phase of this moon cycle, let us make meaning of what we have received in the experience of this full moon, enjoy and revel in its gift, and disseminate its joy to all our relations! In short time we will be gathering up the harvest (last quarter moon, August 5th at 4:19 pm CDT), storing what needs storing, and setting aside in good faith what will be used in the next cycle of manifestation.